A First (belated) Anniversary
*Opens Notepad because the input window for WordPress is too small*
*then switches to Word because Notepad fails as well*
…then I noticed the small drag thinger in the corner of the input window. WOW I feel stupid. *moves back to WordPress*
Anyway. So, you might be wondering what this “1st anniversary” crap is. Well, approximately a year ago, I (would like to say I*) started (really) watching anime and reading manga. It seems like such a long time ago when I was sitting watching Tengan Toppa Gurren Lagann with my brother (start it with a BANG, right?).
I started reading manga like a crazy person, staying up until the wee hours of the morning so I could finish chapters.
I started keeping track of what I read and watched on myanimelist.net.
I watched the epics like Haruhi, Lucky Star and everything by Key (notice the KyoAni fanboy-ness going on here).
I made a pilgrimage to Mecca visited Japan and went to Akiba, spending an obscene amount of money. (Actually my brother spent more, but it was a lot to me D:)
I made a blog after my friends got sick of me posting random blurbs about anime on Facebook. (But this blog is still synced to my Notes on Facebook…)
*The thing is, is that it’s not like I hadn’t seen anime and manga before this event. It’s just that this event sparked a forest fire of otaku-ness.
…
So I guess it’s a good time to stop a reflect. After all, it’s New Years and my 1st psuedo-anniversary as an otaku. (and I’m following the general trend of anime bloggers posting very retrospective posts)
Though I sometimes feel that a lot of time has passed, I don’t feel like I’ve matured at all. Not as a person, or as an otaku. This may be because there seem to be so many better, more intelligent and more insightful people out there, but it still hasn’t come yet. Actually, it probably is because of all these insightful posts I’ve been reading lately. Stuff like this, this and this really make a person think. Or for me, make him feel really shallow. No offense meant to the authors at all, as I guess I did have a pretty fragile ego to begin with (first post much?).
Well, if you’re expecting anything long or insightful, I won’t provide it. To tell you the truth, (whenever I say that phrase, I think of A Catcher in the Rye. I wonder why…) I never really liked reflecting on things. Never liked looking at the big picture, never liked looking to the future. I can give myself goals, but writing down a goal is, for me, almost like saying I’ll never do it. On an Evangelion scale, I’d say I rate about episode 1 Shinji: afraid of the future, afraid of responsibility, and so on and so forth.
But, to end on an optimistic note, I guess this just means I have a lot to learn. A lot of space to grow, and a lot of maturing to do. I am sorta already regretting making an anime blog: I don’t know if I’m really up to the task. I just write on the spur of the moment, a sporatic and irratic person who just goes into teenage angst.
But, is there a true “prerequisite” to blogging at all? Is there anything needed besides a wanting to be heard? (if you looked at my blog, you’d get the impression of “no, there isn’t”.)
…It seems like I’m talking to myself now. I guess I’ll stop. I might continue this some other time, if I feel up to the task of prying myself open some more.
Note: I think I overused the parentheses, didn’t I. Maybe I just have a lot to say, but I don’t think half of it is important.
Note: I probably conveyed a message of self-doubt and teenage angst-y sorta stuff. But no, I’m not asking for comforting.
EDIT1: The refusal to proofread may have to do with the refusal to look at myself in a figurative mirror of sorts.
EDIT2: A summary – Basically, I’ve got a lot to improve on. Go figure, it’s my 4th real post on a 3-day old blog. Not much to look back on.
A book never written
A Catcher in the Tubes: A Tale of Modern Teenage Angst
:O
I wonder what it would contain…
“Lost, I surfed on my favorite anime blogs… but they just didn’t appeal to me anymore…”
Or something along the lines of Ghost in the Shell?
…I have no idea where that idea came from. wtf.
Online buying vs. Real-life shopping
I’ll just say this in advance: I don’t want to sound like I hate the internet or anything, it’s just that the Internet, like most thinks, has a downside in addition to its many advantages. While the only two posts I’ve written seem pretty anti-Internet, I actually like the Internet for all the good things it provides.
Now onto my post!
I’ve recently been staying at my grandparents’ place in LA, and have therefore been taking advantage of the diversity here to look through the numerous anime merchandise shops in the area. (Shops I suggest include Power Anime, Toylet Collectables, and Anime Jungle.) I’ve recently been interested in PVC figures, and those 3 shops have the biggest selection out of all the shops I went.However, while these shops do have great selection, they aren’t perfect, and don’t have everything.
That’s where the online shopping comes in. Some figures I have seen on people’s blogs, but are not in the shops I have visited.Therefore, I resorted to online shops to try to find figures. (I’ll include a list of different anime goods sites below, because I’m just that nice.) However, I think, while using online shops, I really lost some of the shopping experience. Yeah, it sounds lame, but I think some of you may understand what I mean. In a physical shop, you can see all the goods on sale, look at the physical object rather than a 2D picture. Maybe it would be better to say that physical shops are good for browsing, if you don’t know what you want to buy. I personally often find myself in that situation, but I dunno about the rest of you.
Online shops, though convinient, are often more useful if you know what you want to find, as most have this very nice feature called ctrl+find, or a searching function. However, for browsing, the online store lacks, as you only get to see 2D pictures instead of 3D object. This is even more important when buying figures, as figure-buying is a very picky art, depending a lot on how the figure looks in the 3D, not in the 2D. Pictures can give you some information, but not enough information for something as specific as figures. (also, you never know when pictures are photoshopped, or taken from another source. Counterfeits and scams are more common online as well)
When talking about online stores, we also get into the problem of delivery. Shipping costs are often a pain (though not as much anymore because gas prices are going down), and the bought object could be damaged on its way to its destination.
Not only that, but, referencing to what I said in my last post, shopping becomes less personal when you do it through a site. This human interaction is important, at least for me. For example, in one of the stores I went to, the store owner was a pretty cool guy, and would over give me better deals when buying at the actual store than the website advertised. Also, when in a physical shop, you can sometimes haggle with the seller, while in an online store, the numbers are basically set in stone.
Also, because you are just clicking a button, you do not really feel anything when buying an object online. This could lead to irresponsible spending. (though I know I do this in real life too…)
In the end, I think that a combination of both a physical store and some sort of online presence is good. A website is good to advertise yourself, while a physical store is good for interacting with customers. A problem with many of the shops that I went to is that they didn’t have any web presence, so it was hard to determine what they sold, or if they even existed anymore. (the latter problem happened more than you might think…) The three shops I suggested above were all very good in the fact that they had great selection in the physical shop and a well-established web presence which doubled as online stores.
Summary:
Online shops:
pros: looking up specific items, getting the word out about a shop’s existance, all around convenience, can deliver items far away
cons: 2D pictures, less personal, delivery costs and potential problems, counterfeiting/scams, irresponsible shopping (this depends on the person shopping)
Physical shops:
pros: 3D object, browsing (for people who don’t know what they want to buy), more personal (haggling and potential deals), easier to catch counterfeits and scams
cons: looking up specific items, less convenient (have to actually be in the shop), harder to advertise a shop
Having both is definetly the best, as the pros of one often cover the cons of the other.
Lastly, here’s my list of online shops for anime goods (mostly figures). Thanks to dannychoo.com for a majority of this list!
yes-asia
play-asia
hobby-link japan
hobby search
archonia.com
kid nemo company
power anime
toylet collectables
amazon (I think you’d be surpised how many figures amazon has these days…)
(you know, wordpress is kinda annoying because of the fact that its input window for writing posts is tiny… maybe I should write less.)
(just fyi, I never proofread. so don’t blame me for the horrible grammar or spelling, or all around not making any sense at all. I’m pretty brain dead today, so that might be a problem as well…)
Without a doubt, the decline in human interaction.
Maybe not. I’m not really sure what to think.
First, read this: http://omaemo.dasaku.net/2008/12/26/2008-in-review-christmas-e-nnui/
Afterward, read this: http://memories-of-eternity.com/otaku/the-internet-and-communication-socializing-from-the-comfort-of-a-laptop/
If you’re too lazy to read them (because they are pretty damn long), I’ll summarize the very basics:
For one, both of the authors are anime bloggers, and I doubt any of you read anime blogs anyway, so I guess it’s not relevant. Whatever.
Both basically talk about the effects of the internet on human interactions in real life.
The first contends that the internet is ruining the users’ ability to communicate to fellow people in the real world.
A line which summarizes his thoughts is below:
“The problem with our fandom-linked internet existences is that it has the knack of dehumanising communication to an effortless point where someone exists in your context not so much because you care about him or her as a person, but because he or she shares something in common with you.”
The second agrees with many points the first brings up, but doesn’t necessarily see the internet as something degrading human interaction. Instead, it takes a more optimistic tone by saying that the internet may not be hindering us, but actually expanding our horizons or allowing us to come into contact with people we would normally never meet, as behind the username is, in fact, a human being.
Now, what do I think of all of this?
First of all, I find the subject in general very interesting, partly because I probably am a victim of this loss of human interaction. I remember going to a summer camp at Boston, and thinking, “I wonder if anybody here watches anime… If they do, we definitely should meet up.” In the end, most of the friends I had were fellow anime watchers, though probably not as extreme as I in their otaku-ness.
I can see now that I was using the criterion “anime watching” to find friends, rather then simply opening up, making friends, then asking if they watched anime or not.
But, I agree with both articles. While the internet has made it so our interests are a sort of criteria for making friends, it also has helped us come into contact with new and exciting people, expanding our horizons and-
Ok, let’s just stop now.
I just realized that I am getting flipping nowhere in what I’m saying.
Let’s have some original and insightful thoughts, shall we?
I’ve always thought of the internet as a sort of mask. While there is a human being behind the username, the user uses his username as a mask, and may act differently than he would in real life. Just look at any MMO: half the people you meet are complete dicks. Now, I really do hope that half the people I meet in real life aren’t complete dicks.
Also, people act according to the image they want to portray: somebody who wants to seem formal and proper may always speak in proper language, while somebody who really doesn’t care would just degrade to chat language.
Then again, if you think about it, it really isn’t much different from real life then: people hide behind masks in real life, to further their own goals.
I know that, for one thing, on the internet, people feel like they are given a new chance, to start over and portray a different image than they do in real life.
Somebody may actually be a NEET stuck in his parents’ basement, but online he may be the “top dog” or the leader of a whole community. It really sheds new light on the many-faced personalities of human beings, and the effects of the internet on the growth of such personalities.
We have to ask ourselves the question: Is the internet really all that different from real life?
Of course, I mean in terms of human interactions, rather than simple appearance.
I remember reading this manga a while ago called “Mel Kano.” The premise is that a man meets his significant other on a futuristic online dating site of sorts. (This situation seems to be becoming more and more common these days, with many online dating sites advertising that they can find the loved one for anybody.) While the get very well together online, in the real world the couple often querral and argue with each other.
I just remember one line that is said by one of the characters: (see here for the original page)
“In the world of the internet, we’re not bound by society, and we can freely express ourselves… That’s why I believe that the words online reflect the person’s inner heart.”
The idea is that, instead of a mask that hides us, the internet frees us. A bit different from what I was saying before.
And, it seems that many other manga deal with the internet and people. I don’t remember many off the top of my head, but I’m sure they exist.
Okay, I think I really went on some weird tangent and got nowhere. Ah well, just tell me what you think!
Let’s see…
Yo.
Wait, that’s a “very impolite way to greet somebody.”
Okay, don’t care.
Hi, I’m Derek, and this is my automated robotic introduction.
No, that won’t work either.
Wow, I’m not really getting anywhere here am I?
So, I’m Derek, and this is the first post in my blog. Hopefully not the last either. *cough* I would do some really long and drawn out introduction, but I wouldn’t know where to start, what to say, and so on.
Ugh, one thing I’m already not liking about WordPress is that it seems to be double-spaced between every line.
You see, I don’t think I like that so much, as it really isn’t my style to type in really long paragraphs.
Instead, I’d rather just type these nice short one-line thoughts, and just keep on typing without stop.
Otherwise, I’d start doubting myself, as I often do.
Also, it’s kinda a pain capitalizing the beginning of every sentence, so sorry if I don’t do that in the future.
Well, let’s get down to business.
This is probably going to turn into an anime blog.
I can see it already: “Derek’s Anime Blog: Go read about some lame thoughtless high-schooler otaku rant about random shit, or gtfo kthxbai.”
Ah, maybe not. Doesn’t bode well in my mind.
Maybe I’ll just stay with the
OH WAIT
I just discovered the shift-enter makes the lines not double spaced
OH SHIT GENIUS
But I’m too lazy to change all the lines above. *sigh*
And if, in the future, you think that my posts are thoughtless garbage, I really don’t blame you.
Because I’m trying not to think as I write. Because then I’d get nothing written.
I’m always doubting myself, thinking everything through one-too many times, and it gets to a point where I just stop and go “fuck this, time to move on with my life.”
…And now I’m just going on some really weird tangent and have no idea whatsoever where I started from.
Ah well. I’ll just post this and see what happens.
Wait, I forgot to talk about my URL.
See, my URL is an example of one of those things I think way too much about.
You could say it’s a first impression of sorts (oh, shit! I made a really bad one, didn’t I. go figure.), so I thought about.
And thought about it.
And thought about it.
And in the end, got something really lame and really corny.
No, actually, I just went “fuck this. I know I want to make a blog, but have no fucking idea what to call it.” So I went with “the true melody,” which is from the anime ef: a tale of melodies.
Big whoop.
Actually, I just watched ef. Like, an hour ago. So I’m so unoriginal, I decided to steal something from a show I really like. Yeah, you’ll probably be seeing more of that soon.
Interestingly enough, I have this same problem with any name I try to make up (I’m thinking MMORPGs right now, as that’s really the only time I made lots of names. Probably spent more time thinking of what to name my character than actually playing.)
Wait, it’s not interesting at all.
As for the blog name…
It’s probably going to be changed soon.
But, for now its “somewhere between yesterday and tomorrow,” referencing the fact that I have no fucking idea where I am in the big scheme of things, or if I’m in it at all.
Simply put, I’m lost. At life. Epic fail.
Okay, that’s enough self-reflection for the night. I kinda feel like a piece of shit now, and I don’t have a very good image of myself, so when I talk about myself, it always seems to come out to be very negative.
Well, night.
I’ll see you next time, if there is one.
